Life and Love

Today I am thankful for the gift of life.

Three years ago, I didn't know if I would see past my 25th birthday.

I didn't know if I would live to see my newborn daughter grow up.

I was afraid, she would never know me.

I was wondering if I would ever get the call.

I remember vividly, holding onto the hope of life.

Praying each and every day for my donor and family.

Playing a lot of scrabble games in between.

Looking out the hospital window.

Praying, and hoping, and wishing...

When Mr. Lovebug, wrote this:

Today marks exactly two months since I last...

Slept in the same bed with you.

Rode in the same car with you.

Was your primary caregiver (in action).

Ate a real meal with you.

Tickled you.

Bought a McDonald's breakfast for you.

Was really alone with you.

Ate your homecookin'.

Got your meds ready for you.

Danced with you.

Really kissed you good.

I've spent more time with you in the past two months that in forever, and I wouldn't trade it for the world.

But still, I miss you like crazy.

Life: I never want to take it for granted. I am so grateful for my donor's gift of it.

Love: I want to lavish in it. I want to consistently remind myself of where we were, and where we are. I want celebrate it, everyday!


  1. I have been following your story since Ladybug's birth and your transplant and you truly are an inspiration and a testimony of God's great love and grace.

  2. Beautiful words from a beautiful heart.

  3. all of us need to be a little bit more like you... we all take too much for granted.


  4. This is beautiful! Just like you and Nate and little bug.

  5. Tricia: I have been following your (and Nathan's) blog for a long time. I had a kidney transplant twenty years ago and have shared a few of the same problems you have. I am curious about this new web site--some places you refer to yourselves as "lovebugs" and other places as "ladybugs". Are they the same?

  6. Oh this is amazing. Your story is so inspirational. xx


  7. My husband had a kidney/pancreas transplant July 2, 2010. I can totally relate to you and your husband's words. Love your blog and your heart! :)

  8. Tricia, I have been following Nathan's blog since the night my daughter called to ask me to pray because you were about to give birth. I went back to the beginning and read it all in one evening. I have prayed for your family ever since and check in to see what is up with you guys. I have really enjoyed hearing from you through this blog, and I keep coming back to this particular post because it really encourages me in the midst of my own personal pain. You have so much to offer--keep it coming.